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Friday, May 21, 2010

This and That

I can't sleep. I guess its a real good thing its Friday night and I don't have to get up for work tomorrow. Oh wait, I do have to get up early and get my oil changed, and transmission fluid replaced. I hate that I can't sleep. If you know me at all, then you know I can sleep anywhere, anytime....with the exception of being on steroids. Another side affect, horrible leg cramps. One night this week I woke up 8 times! Last night was so bad I came into the living room bawling my eyes out. I thought I was crippled. My hands do this funny thing too where they cramp up real bad and stop working all together. I need to eat more banana's. I go back for my next doctor visit in 2 weeks. Hopefully all will be well.

Work was very stressful this week. I've kept it to myself, and eaten lots of thin mints. I can honestly say that no matter how stressful my day is at work, the moment I get Jaxon nothing else matters. I forget about all my problems and enjoy my time with him.

I feel like my relationship with Jesus gets better and better everyday. I really do.

I jumped back on the twitter bandwagon. jaxonsmomma08 Follow me =)

Another bandwagon I'm considering jumping back on is Greys Anatomy. Once I had Jaxon I quit watching it because I just didn't have time. So for 2 years I have apparently missed out. I watched the season finale tonight on Hulu because ALL the facebook status's just had me so stinkin curious. Needless to say, it was the most intense television I have ever watched! I twittered all the way through it! LOL

Another show I thoroughly enjoy is Modern Family!

After reading a friends blog the other night I got a wild idea to see if my 4 bff's would want to get matching tattoo's. Crazy, I know...just thought it might be fun. I'm pretty sure it will never happen....but the thought was fun. Not sure what on earth we would all get??? Matching tree houses??

Well, I just thought I would updated the ol' blog since sleeping isn't in my immediate future. I updated my background and added a few new pics. Hope you enjoy.

sleep well everyone
zzzzz

Saturday, May 15, 2010

NO, I AM NOT PREGNANT!

Since I have been out of the hospital and on steroids I have gained a little weight. The doctor informed me that I would get a little puffy, but I knew that...because, hello! they are steroids! I don't care about the weight gain so much as I just want to be healthy. Well, a few weeks ago at my cousin's wedding someone approached me and asked if we were expecting another baby. I didn't really get terribly offended, as I just thought maybe she had noticed my slight weight gain since the last time she had seen me. Well the following Monday when I went to pick up my child from daycare one of the mothers of a child in Jaxon's class came up to me and said, "Aw I didn't know you guys were expecting again!" I nicely told her I was not, that it was my medication that has made me gain a few pounds, smiled and walked away. Of course I instantly called my husband crying when I got into my car. He made me feel slightly better, but those sort of comments you just don't forget. Especially being that they were 2 days within each other.

WELL TODAY (AND YES I AM TYPING IN CAPS BECAUSE I AM STILL SO UPSET!!) WHILE SHOPPING AT THE MALL WITH A COUPLE OF MY BFF'S, COURTNEY AND MARISSA, MY HUSBAND AND OF COURSE JAXON, THIS MAN WALKS UP TO ME AND HANDS ME A POSTCARD ADVERTISING HIS PHOTOGRAPHY BUSINESS AND TELLS ME TO CALL HIM WHEN MY BABY COMES. ARE YOU STINKING KIDDING ME?!?!?!?!?!?!!!! Well I instantly teared up. I mean, seriously, I don't get people! You should NEVER under any circumstances assume that a woman is pregnant unless you are 110% sure. I have always been relatively thin so I know that people are thinking, "Wow, Sarah sure has put on a few!" I'm on steroids people!!!! I am constantly hungry!! I know that once I get off of them (hopefully) I will get rid of some of this excess junk...but until then, I'm going to just focus on getting healthy.


Deal Lord,
Please continue to heal my body and help rid me of this disease. As for the next person that asks me if I am pregnant, please give me the strength NOT to want to punch them directly in the throat! In your name I pray,
Amen

Saturday, May 08, 2010

No Title

I twittered at 3 am that I could update my blog. 3 am, you ask? Steroids DO NOT like for you to sleep! Steroids, you ask....okay, let's begin.


At the beginning of April I went into the hospital. (Back in January I was diagnosed with a chronic illness that I will need to monitor for the rest of my days. Not going to get into so many details, nor is it super alarming or scary, but it is what it is.) I was checked in on a Tuesday and got released on Saturday. Those were the longest days of my life!!! Being away from my family was so incredibly hard. I'm the MOM! I take care of things. Not cooking dinner, not laying out clothes, not giving baths or reading bedtime stories....hurt my heart! Well, my super-dad of a husband was FANTASTIC! He took care of EVERYTHING! I made him go to work, as, Really? What is there to do in a hospital room? He took care of Jaxon, coordinated with our wonderful friends and one of his brothers to watch Jaxon for a few hours each night so he could bring me dinner and visit. He brought Jaxon up a few times so I could see him. We had a wonderful McDonald's picnic right on my hospital bed. And of course, I got wonderful visits from my super great friends, phone calls, flowers, books, magazines, and cookies! My heart is still so full from all the love and support that was given to me. Our pastor and music leader came up to the hospital to visit and pray with me and I just thought that was so wonderful. I had alot of time to read, think, and pray while I was in there. My doctor felt that my issue flared up due to stress, and I had to agree. I was so overwhelmed with everything I had going on in April, and I was slightly stressed at work. I just couldn't say no to anything or anyone that asked me to do something or invited us to go somewhere. I try so hard to be super mom and I'm hear to tell ya, that is one hard job! Especially if a super mom has a full time job! Since leaving the hospital I can say that I do feel great! I'm a couple of different medications, one being steroids. Aside from them making my face super puffy, and keeping me up at night...I can't complain. You'd be surprised what all you could get done at 4 o'clock in the morning! LOL My doctor said I have a long road, as I'm not in the clear yet, but I am very hopeful and optimistic. As I was walking into work one morning shortly after my hospital stay, this sweet Christian man that works with me was walking in at the same time. When he turned around and saw me his eyes lit up and he said, "Sarah, I heard this song on the radio on my in this morning, and it was called, "It's Over." I don't what you are going through, but I thought about you when I heard that song, and God really laid it on my heart to tell you that whatever it is you are dealing with, its over." I smiled and said, "thank you." As I was going up the elevator I got a little teary. God works in mysterious ways, and I feel like HE uses his people to speak to us. HE has blessed me beyond belief and I thank HIM everyday for all that HE has provided.

Lets see, so much to say, yet I just can't seem to find a place to begin.

Our sweet Jaxon turned 2 on April 22nd. We had a wonderful birthday party for him at the park down by our house. It was supposed to rain all day, but thank God it didn't! It was a perfect day! I hired my favorite photographer, Deanna Masella, to come capture some memories of Jaxon's birthday party. She did a fantastic job of course! You can take a look at some of the pics on her blog...www.deannamasellaphotography.blogspot.com

My cousin got married the weekend of Jaxon's birthday. Jaxon was the ring bearer. I was so nervous about how he would do, but he was FANTASTIC!!! He looked sooo cute in his tux. I got teary eyed when he walked down the aisle. lol. He started off real good, got about half way down, tossed his pillow aside and ran to me! It was cute. He is such a big boy, and talking soooo good these days. He blows my mind. I am so thankful for him. Sometimes I feel like my heart could explode with the amount of love I have for him!

I love my bff's. I love them more than they will ever know. Deanna (my favorite photographer) got a wonderful photo of all of us at Jaxon's birthday party that I cannot wait to get in a frame. We have all been friends for so long and even though some of us don't get to see each other as often as we like, when we do get together we just pick up right where we left off. I thank God for them everyday and I absolutely can't imagine my life without them.

Have you ever heard of TOMS shoes? You know the commercial....where if you buy a pair, then they give a pair of shoes to a child in need. Well, I have been wanting some TOMS for awhile now. I think they are cute and I love a good cause! My husband thinks they are ugly, but he bought me a blue pair last weekend as part of my Mother's Day gift. They are soooo comfy!!! I love them sooo much! Last night I was on toms.com and saw the silver sparkly ones....if you know me then you know I love a good sparkly anything! I couldn't resist! I ordered them! I just love the fact that when you buy a pair of shoes, you are also giving a pair to a child in need. If you don't have some, get some! You won't regret it!

Today is the day before Mother's Day and we have just been hanging out at home. My house is clean, my yard is mowed, my trees are trimmed, we have played outside and Jaxon is now napping. We are taking my in laws out to dinner tonight for Mother's day and I am so looking forward to a wonderful evening with them. I hope all of you Mommies out there are as blessed and as in love as I am. May you each have a glorious day with your loved ones!